Can sum 1 please tell me what real tru luv is ASAP!!!?

how can any 1 really no? is there a rule? is there a guiide line u must follow 2 achieve luv? is luv 4 ever or is lust?can u cut luv of in a blink of an eye after 13yrs?is loyally a big part of luv? does a person luv u when evrything u do that might not work out 2 there benefit makes them wont 2 leave in all the info u people out there have ASAP!! because im ready 2 give up on life and LOVE im tired of beingsad,hurt,streesed out and confused on the issues of life and love i hurt so bad inside u all just dont no please help im 37yrs old and not looking 4ward on c,ing 38 feeling like this 3kids that i think luv me but,still im ready 2 give up on life tired of praying and f#CK!!!!i need peace of mind cant stop shaking crying now looking 4 a way out ,i was left by my mother at 8 months have no family no friends but yall out there please sum body PLEASE ANYBODY!!!!! I DONT WANT 2 go 2 hell hypo down& OUT